Change

Last time I talked to Asher on the phone, he asked me to blog again... so I do so. =)

At the moment so many things are going on in my life. It's not only that I finished school and got my ‘Abitur’ and that I had my graduation party last Friday. It's more than that.
A new part of my life will start tomorrow. I'll start to work in a well-known hotel not too far away from my home.
First I’ll work in the sales-office, afterwards in the restaurant and in my third month I’ll work at the front desk.
I’m some kind of looking forward but on the other side I’m pretty afraid.
I don’t know why but I’m afraid of all these changes.
No more school, all my friends are leaving and everything is changing... Some of my friends go to Canada, others travel Europe, some will work all summer long and some will join the armee for one year.
I’m afraid of losing contact and I’m afraid of the future.

Sometime changes are like adventures but if the changes are too huge they just frighten me.
And all of a sudden it has all changed and I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

Sugababes - Change

But sometimes

I just can't
I just don't understand
Why you had to go
I guess I'll never know

Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
Ain't it crazy how you think
You've got your whole life planned
Just to find that it was never ever
In your hand
Change

And sometimes
I just cry
Can't say I
Don't know why
Why'd you have to go?
And leave me here alone

You don't see it coming
Change
When the future comes knocking
It changed
It can make you and break you too
You'd just have to make it through

God bless you
-Krissi