except that i've walked down the other road too many times before, and never felt absolutely at peace about it. this other one is beautiful, adorned with roses, lush pines and conifers of all shapes and sizes, the fragrance is intoxicatingly sweet and unforgettable.
but God doesn't seem to want me there.
Ireland is beautiful so far as i can tell in all the films and photographs. the roaring sea breeze tearing up the rock faces along the north sea. the grass as far as the eye can see. green, rolling hills, serenity at its epoch. I've wanted to live there ever since i first knew its name.
but God doesn't seem to want me there.
instead, God is calling me to begin my journey in his mission by chasing him all the way to Africa. to the shanty-towns. to the jungles, to the vast plains. to the church, both underground and on the hilltops.
in this way, from where i humbly sit now, both simpleness in Africa and singleness on this narrow road are my callings.
it helps so greatly that Emily and i share this notion of singleness as God's calling for us both. we talked about it last night and are both so much more at peace than i think we have been in a long time! so, la Vita a Bella! (about the only Italian i know)
where i go next is a complete mystery, i wait for God's word on these next agendas. i have no other choice. i am blessed with the assurance of God's constant presence, as well as that of several very close friends.
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Sometimes God requires us to give up everything we want, just to see if we really need it. Like God did with Abraham and Isaac and with Matthew and Peter and John (lol) and everything else that he calls us to give up for Him. God's journey is the only one that leads to the end destination...all the others are just dead ends. We cannot fight God, we can only trust him. I will continue to pray for this situation because I think today it has been the hardest I've faced in a long time...
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